Sometimes I have worries. Worries that I can't even voice. Sometimes I can't voice them because other people will blow them off and other times I can't voice them because some people would use them as an excuse to harass rather than reassuring. I know this from experience.
Worries like this wear on me and steal my spoons. I know this happens but I haven't found a way to deal with it otherwise. As a lifetime bottler, I know that it isn't good for me or anyone else and have even said so to a dear friend recently.
This leaves me with the dilemma of being blown off, seen as someone blowing things out of proportion, seen as trying to get attention, etc.... Or, talking to someone that with take my worries to other people and just keep bringing it up over and over.
I can feel unimportant or like I opened Pandora's box on my family...
And so I keep it to myself. Then worry steals my spoons. I think it is the best option for me but it isn't a great one. I borrow enough spoons without the ones I borrow being stolen from me.
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That being said, I took time off of work and haven't done as much so I have more spoons lately... well for the next day and a half anyway.
That's all for this post guys. Have a great Thursday.
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